New Years resolutions

Yesterday, though I say that, it is still today to me, because I do not think of the days in hours, I think of the days as the periods I am awake (though if we get into semantics, if I stay up for multiple days-over 24 hours, then I do measure the day by the hour). So, since I am still awake from when I woke up on the first, to me, it still feels like the first. Anyway, the paradoxes of time are not what I am going to be writing about, though it could make for an interesting discussion sometime over coffee, wine, tea, or any other type of delectable beverage. Though not Dr. Pepper. I love Dr. Pepper, and I just do not think the absurd ramblings of philosophy on time would not mix well with the general feel goodness of Dr. Pepper. I could be totally wrong in that thought, and since I acknowledge that fact, I am of course willing to test it sometime, if anyone wants to.

Ok, so on to my random thought.
This year, I did not make any concrete resolutions. From my past experiences and just listening to people, resolutions are normally forgotten about or no longer striven for after the first several weeks or months of New Years. People that resolve to start running fad off, those that want to eat healthier get fast food, those that want to stop smoking light up... the list goes on, but you can probably see what I am getting at. I understand resolutions and have nothing against them. To me, and probably by definition, a failed resolution is not a resolution. If you resolve to do something and then fail, that resolution become null. Now, if you resolution involves the word try... well then you are not resolving anything. You are basically saying I am going to try to do something. The resolution of that resolution can only be found out at the end of the year. And in the end, it is either yes or now. I guess in total, that is all a resolution is. Something that you either pass or fail. But this year instead of hanging that Twinkie in front of me to get me to do something that I should probably already want to do, I am going to go about it in a new manner.

No, I am just going to try to live my life more fully. I am going to try to do new things, make new friends, help more people, be more open minded, listen more, be a better person, be a little healthier, spend less money on stupid things, and not worry about the little inconsequential things that I can sometime get hung up on. I am going to try to find goals to attain and more purpose to life. I want to try to center myself spiritually, emotionally, and physically. So, is it a resolution? Kind of. But I am not resolving to do it. I am not going to be able to judge whether I do it or not. There is no pass/fail.

This year, I will be turning 25. In October, I will hit my 3 year mark in NYC. It seems like yesterday I was graduating from college, and moving to NYC as a bright and starry eyed 22 year old.

What has changed in my life? What am I better at? What have my successes been? Where have my failures been? What haven't I done enough? What have I done too much? What have I missed out one? What friends have I alienated? What friends have I failed to meet? What has made me happy? What has made me sad? What love have I forlorn and foregone? What love lies ahead?What dreams and I running toward? What dreams have I given up on?...

I have been living my life... but have I really been living my life?

What does this year hold in store for me? I have no idea, but I cant wait to get started and find out