February is half done. It is already the middle of February. Wow. I cant believe it.

So, quick update on all that is my life... ok, well not all, but a brief glimpse into it. I really wish I could just write a good post sometime, but when ever I feel like posting something, I am not in the mood for writing something.

So, I now am getting a new confidence about myself, and this one is with girls. Anyone that knows me, or even that has read the few posts before, knows that it is one thing that often gets me. Well, I have learned a lot, and now, there is a girl that I really don't want to mess up with. Not only is she really pretty, but she is funny and quirky and has many of the same interests as me. I have seen her several times, and even asked her out, though that is still in limbo. I'd love to just say that I am pretty new at this, and am a little socially awkward about it, so at least she would know why I am like I am. But at least as of right now, I am doing decently I think. But instead of trying to be different, I am just being me. I think that is one of the problems that I often faced. I wanted to be who I thought a girl would want me to be, instead of being me. So this new confidence is long over due, but it feels good.

Along with that, I think I am pretty good looking now too. I was always a bit self conscious about my looks. But really, I think I am getting decent looking. Instead of looking older then I should, I am now looking like a person my age should, and I think me carrying the confidence helps too. I now see guys and instead of being intimidated thinking they look better then me, I think I look better, or at least equal to them.

So, even though this year is only 1.5 months in, already do I feel like I have matured quite a bit, and am getting more into the rhythm of my life.

Anyway, for Lent this year, I am making it a difficult one for me. I am giving up all soda pop (including my love, Dr. Pepper), I am not going to eat Beef or Pork, I will stop drinking white wine, and though I do not indulge often, adult pictures are no more either. I am also going to go to church at least once a week (whether it be Catholic or the non-denominational Christian church that I sometimes go to). This Lent I am going to focus on improving myself as a person in both physical and mental health. While some of these things are not necessarily in line with my live life to the fullest new years idea, it is something to at least challenge me.

My job is still going pretty good. I am starting to feel like there isnt much room for advancement. I dont like that feeling very much. Granted, I have only been doing it for 2 months. I need to focus on the present and not on the future. That is kind of hard for me. But, we will see.

Ok, so that is just a brief update on the state of me. I may sometime actually do a long post about everything, but as of now, hopefully this suffices.

Peace to all
E